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Sometimes I scare myself, I just can't let it go....pieces of me are falling, I just can't seem to make them stay, I can see you running away in my eyes, faster and faster, leaving me here....I just need to hold on and find the light in this darkness...
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| I don't know what to do anymore.....I look down at the crimson, the red love dripping from my body....proving that, love never stays...it slowly drips and flows away....love hurts so much......I look in the mirror, staring at myself...wishing I could see what you see in me.....
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..I don't know what I'm doing anymore...my head aches...my body is against me....I'm so afriad of what I've become....I lied to those closes to me, I told them I was fine..that I'm better now...but that was just so I wouldn't hurt them...I'm so scared.....
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-sigh- what am I to do?...I feel like I'm dying inside....I've been trying to hard to get my eating back to order...but it's not working, instead of getting better, I'm falling deeper into the mouth of a demon, that has me tied up and is pulling me back to evil.....I want to get better...but I just can't help myself....I'm standing on the sideline watching what I think is a video of myself struggling.....
My insides are killing me, it feels like they're pulling in together, my head is spinny and I keep getting these fevers that come and go...I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm terrified of what I have become....in the mornings I get nauses and run in the middle of class and puke my insides out...and if I don't eat in the mornings I throw up during lunch...I don't know what to do anymore...should I throw the white towl in...or continue the battle with myself....I don't know anymore...
I've lost so much weight already in a short amount of time...from 160 to already a 145 in 5 weeks......I want to be beautiful....and I guess beauty has a price....
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